dignity
respect
self worth
love
security

i have none of the above
my body is not a temple.
my mind is not a temple.
it is the aftermath of a hurricane.

i do not need to move on with michael and treat him like a friend.
i deserve as much shit.

i do not need to helplessly push away these fears in sake of my emotions
i deserve this shit

afterall
i am nothing

worthless

my body is not sacred
my mind is not a preserved and working
my feelings are not meant to be taped together
my heart is not meant to be in one

i am meant to be exploited
my mind is deserved to be corrupted
my feelings are meant to not be of concern
my heart is meant to be shattered

because i am jacqueline
and that identity will remain forever
for i am undeserving