inadequacy

quite possibly one of the worst feelings ever known to man.

to know that you are not good enough. to know that you are let alone not 'good' at all for that matter. to know that you are useless. to know that you might as well just never be loved. to send a piece of cold vibration and have none returned...

you are... inadequate.

and that is me. sadly. i put so much effort into bettering myself, physically and personally, yet i will just never be able to be good enough. i want to feel and be beautiful. i want to be the mother teresa in my heart. i want to be this and that, and i want to reach the expectations without having to fall.


but i can't. it is either nobody believes in me or i just can't seem to get it right.

why do i still make the efforts of trying to make myself seem and feel good, that perhaps one day i will be better than this worthless piece of junk i am. i am tired of being so darn selfless and trusting towards others, because in clear reality this world is just one big misleading place.